When caterpillar is touched
it yearns to fly to you
Yet You neither forced it to
nor spin its cocoon
Did it ever think
to crash out and turn back hence?
Or fear that You
can really change it?
Help me to soar
wrapped in the arms of love
Till You can make me
as You would have me be
Take me
and fill me with Thy spirit
Take me
and shape me with Thy love
Take me
and make all that You will
No thought
No wish
No breath in life
But yours
Thursday, January 11, 2007 Year of New Beginnings
This year really started with quite a bang for me...At the end of last year, I had been a little worried about my schedule for this year. I had been praying for a schedule that enables me to lead a fairly comfortable lifestyle and one that would also be able to balance my church activities like serving and attending bible studies, and even more ambitiously placing myself in a cell group....Based on my human calculation and sight, I could never have dreamt that every single one of my wish list may actually come to past! (my schedule has yet to be 100% confirmed)...I'm so delighted! Thanks to my Top boss Jesus who has approved my requests! Hoorray! :)
Well, this year would be a year of a fair bit of change in my life. I've bought a new flat and would probably be moving in by middle of this year...I'm quite excited about it cause it would be something new to be living on my own...although i've lived overseas without my parents before, but this time round it would not be in someone else's apartment but my very own...fortunately since i've not had a maid for the past 7 years of my life, i've been forced to learn all the basics of household management, from ironing to cleaning, washing, light cooking...I think that really helped...haha...now i'm ready to embark of managing my very own hideout!..hehe...
Something new would be that it would be the first renovation project that i have to embark on in my entire life...haha...I really have a whole lot of wishlist for my new house and now have sent my request to my boss to get approval of the it and hopefully i'll get a good budget!..haha...My renovators are telling me it's impossible to do the list of things that i've requested at the budget that i've given them but i'm so glad i've have a more optimistic and rich boss and great friend whom i believe would provide for all things and see me through the whole process..=).....and i'm sure it would turn out perfect because while all things are prepared for the day of battle, But the victory still remains with the LORD.
Sunday, November 19, 2006 Rejoice and Again I say Rejoice!
Yep, so often I find myself falling in to the trap of beginning unable to be joyful especially in times where things don't turn out in a way that I want it too...its easy at times to thank the Lord for good things but how about things that were not so ideal? Well I have learnt that it is so important and even more increasing so, to trust the Lord for ALL things, cause All things will eventually work for the good for those who trust in Him....I've to hit this so hard into my brain cause this human brain of mind keeps forgetting =)....that even when things don't turn out right, the Lord sees beyond our present circumstances cause he don't live in a time zone like us, and out current position falls under his perfect plan for our lives and it don't matter whether the little things that we fail along the way cause he's abounding in grace and mercy and will always pick us up and bring us back to the right track and from there we can move on with confidence. We are juz like the little child trying so hard to push a big tree trunk all by ourselves, naturally we would fail cause we don't have enough strength but it is only when our Heavenly Father comes to assist us that we would be able get the it moved. So juz need to call on our Daddy and he'll do the work for us, so we juz need to relax in circumstances that go beyond our control. We juz need to pray, then trust the Lord to do his part in it.
Well, my life's full of errors and several regrets but I'm sooo very glad that God don't count them anymore. For that I am indeed eternally grateful...I'm so glad the Lord picked me to be a beneficiary in Christ, cause if i have to pay back all that debt of sins i had made, it would really take me many many thousands of centuries to do that and even then more new sins would have accumulate in those centuries and it will take me another few more rounds again...and it will never end =) So isn't that something worth rejoicing for? =)
Today I was so tired, when my alarm rang i continued sleeping...haha and when i finally awoke, it was close to 7am. Rushed to queue for lst svc but fortunately managed to get to the main audi =)....Was really blessed and touched by the Lord during the svc as i was again reminded that of his great love he has for me...never would i be able to outdo that love...this reminds me of those gambling drama series where there would be two gamblers competing and they would follow each other in putting the larges amounts of money on the centre of the table till one of them runs out of money.....well if we use love as a token to "gamble" with the lord, we would surely lose cause his love is too abundant that even every human's love added together would not be able to come close to it....he clothes us with his robes of righteousness and giving us so much authority in his name even when we were so undeserving of it...but he still choose to adorn us with the right to come boldly into his presence to worship and praise him...Isn't that so fanastic?=) The more I know this truth, the greater level of wisdom i realise i need to have in order to effectively use all the wonderful gifts that we possess so that I can be who the Lord intended me to be in this world....Don't think I'll be able to use my human eyes to understand the depth of this love cause we would never find such a person in his world who can love us so selflessly...Yep, truly our human love is so inconsistent and fluctuates too easily and it is usually based on our moods and circumstances but fortunately our God is unlike us or else it would truly be disastrous! haha...=)I'm so glad to be deeply loved, highly favored, richly blessed forever...Love you JESUS! =)
Juz an update on my previous posting...I've found my new house...Thanks to Jesus! I've found a house that meets all my requests that i had asked for :)...Wanted a house with a view as an important thing for me cause i really hate to live in a place with a lousy view..so during my house hunt, although i saw another house that had a good view, it was next to the railway track, so it was a turn off...so i decided to wait then...then one of days i browsed through the classifieds and saw the house i bought for sale,called the agent and when i saw view, it was love at first sight! :) and the house location was excellent and interior needs some renovation but it's ok cause i already expected that already...so decided to buy it the next day...it was really quicker than i initially planned for but price negotiations went smooth and i secured the house within 2 days...Well i wouldn't be able to get the keys till next march probably but meanwhile i've got to start thinking through renovations and budget...well as He provided for the house, i believe he'll see me through all the renovations amist my busy schedule next yr....Committing it in HIS Hands....:D
